i felt better!

went out with cis and trans today. felt better after telling them my problem and also the so-called secret. didnt want to tell them because i might sound like i m not serious about it at all. but i am really serious. we planned about it, want to make sure that this will work. it is the first time for me to talk about this, clear of what i want. it makes me happy. ya i know, it is just the start and things might change in the future. but at least, we thought about it. 

and then, met ah jian and his friends for dinner. 

and then, went home and talked to my mum about my magazine design. suddenly i got enlightened by her. it was not my design problem! YES i finally know why! this has never been fair... it sucks.