went for a photoshoot today. had lots of fun learning about new things. tourists are all taking pictures of me and now i found out that i've a very olden-styled face. after that met cis. told her about everyday. i m glad that she was there. i felt better.
he called.
a few second of awkward silence. before i asked him 'are you looking for me?'. yes, he said.
i told him, we were not angry with him. few second of silence again. after that, he asked me to study hard. and not be affected by what had happened. he didnt apologized and i dont want him to. but he said, is all his fault, he made a big mistake.
i told cis, someone who has been nice for his own life, will turns into a big bad guy with only one mistake. everything will be destroyed by that one mistake. and it is true.
i feel so .........
so i tried to look for people to talk to. and i thought tomorrow will be a gd day. maybe it will still be. just that i was very disappointed. ironic... when you are having a hard time, some people will just be out there partying. forgetting about you. of course doesnt mean that everything has to be sad at the same time. but i just cant stand that 'forgetting' part...
again, he said, is his fault.
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maybe there isn't forgetting part? maybe its just that he/ she thinks/ feels that u need some time alone? he/she maybe thinking on his/ her perspective though, didn't ask what u actually wants/ needs? we need to have faith in something before we can work that something...
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