i cant believe that holiday is going to end, christmas is over and chinese new year is coming. i cant believe that new year is really coming. i cant believe this. i cant believe going back to battle field. i cant believe that i'm starting to have feeling of detest. 

how if i can just let go of everything, heck care and live happily? 

how if i can have someone who understand everything i say and what i think and what i mean, and doesnt have to ask stupidly about everything? 

how if i m easily satisfied? and try to think of people who are worse than me rather than those who are better than me?

i really admired you when you said that to me. i dont know. over confident? or easily contended? do you really think is good enough?

when will things grow? 

people grow? 

we grow?

and i hate it when people copy me and say that CH is her idol too. 

after i wrote that on facebook, you are following too... aiyo