high expection on myself. and then low expectation for some people. being tolerant is another thing. why cant i get the things i want? i dont even dare to voice out. it is always so disappointing. phone ringing but it is always not mine. always force myself to heck care about that so i will be happier.

5days of school. 1 saturday and 1 family day. there isnt any my day. the happiest days now are the times with the isomers. although we dont meet as often, but i will always be so happy when i m with them. deep inside i know they care and love me. there's no need to say or talk about it, it is their actions. i see all these in their actions.

whenever i m angry, i tried to force myself to forget about it. because i need to be strong. i really dont want you to feel that i m too weak. whenever i m unhappy, i keep it inside. because .wont try to make me happier. i have to entertain myself, encourage myself, cheer myself up. it is so hard you know?

it is always lazy and laugh. i rather stick to people who can cheer me up. stronger? independent? or means i dont need anyone? .gave me what i need. that is the reason.

只有你懂得珍惜是没有用的. 因为别人不懂. 到头来,什么都没有.

when you reply with a 'why', you show more concern than replying with 'ok loh'.

i dont know why, recently i keep talking to people who dont want to reply me. like my tuition girl. ask her things, she will look elsewhere and keep quiet. tell about my things, theres only 'ok loh' or lol. maybe i shouldnt care about all these and try to talk to people who will care and listen. share my problem with others.